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released March 30, 2015

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Track Name: Ate Baby Porky Pine (early)
I ate a baby porky pine.
It's grown through my skin.
Bitterness is moldy blankets
that we've wrapped ourselves in.

And I let it in my lung
I lit it in my lungs
I let it in my lung
I lit it in my
lungs

I drank it down like water
It seemed I'd walked so far.
It went in sweet like raisins,
now it burns hot like sulfer.

And I breathe it like a smoking gun
I breathe it like a smoking gun
I breathe it like a smoking
Gun

[I don't blame myself]
but there's no denying that my skin has changed
[I don't blame myself]
Quick as a match I realize that I'm opposite
[I don't blame myself]
When really the change has been slow like winter turns to spring
[I don't blame myself]
but it's reality, my skin's changed opposite shades

[You breathe in me not like anyone] X3 I'll breathe you in like the burning sun
It's reality

You pulled the mourning across my chest
deep breaths like morning baptize
my head, like a brush across my skin,
I'd said I'd always let You in

I breathe you in like the burning sun
I'll breathe you in like the burning sun
I'll breathe you in like the burning sun
You breathe in me not like anyone

[Chorus and stuff]
Track Name: Valley Maker cover - names
You
Go out from your parents
I give you a nation
If you could only see it
I don’t want to call you what I used to call you
Everybody’s changing, so just let me change you
Abraham

You
Will you not be fruitful?
Mother of a nation
You got tired of waiting
I don’t want to call you what I used to call you
Everybody, everybody’s changing
So just let me change you
Sarah

You
You were born of struggle
Do you hate your nation?
Are you tired of fighting?
I don’t want to call you what I used to call you
Everybody, everybody’s fading
So just let me name you
Israel
Track Name: The Elephant and the Arctic Tern
It only took one night with your eyes and skin across my chest
to turn my bones to molten glass, my skin to molten led.
I'd heard your voice a few times since and now my ears are keen
I've searched this whole damn forests since, I've up-turned every tree.

and this furnace fire ain't goin' out and you're no where to be seen

Mama said, "baby boy, gaurd your heart"
[boy] -"but I thnk that she'd love me if I got this armor off.
She'd see me for who I really am, she'd see I'd walked so far
but shits stuck to my skin and I'm not sure where you've gone.

I came down to the waterin' hole to get myself a drink.
It took my weight in whisky to know there's nothin like your taste.
I took a rest and thought real hard bout every little thing;
It could cost my life but mean the world to see her once again,

and 44,000 miles ain't far when you're at the other end

But mama said, "baby boy don't stray far
but Daddy's watchin' over you He knows you like a hawk.
He know's every anxious way -and ways that don't belong.
Every way within, oh, He listens like a song.

My blisters stack as blisters do, they're mats beneath my toes,
but they don't hurt quite so bad the times I think of you.
My name might mean nothin to you, it may just mean a word
but I'll search this whole damn world to find, I've got to know for sure.
Track Name: Just a quick Recording
Maybe you think I'm tryin to save you
That you're just somebody new
But you're not the only one
Who thinks to die

Yea, I share my pain with Jesus
And He always keeps me up
But I don't always want
to stay alive

I just want to sit closely to you
Watch the sky wake the moon
Maybe together we could share
all our blues

If you feel this thing in my chest
And how it reacts
When you're sittin close
Oh you sat close to me
You wouldn't worry about your beliefs
I'd be like you and you
'd be like me

You think I got somethin you need
That I'm a shiny night on a shiny steed
But I'm just another boy
Without a face

Maybe we just got babblin words
And things we think we mean
Fut we all long
For the same embrace

I just wanna sit closely to you
Watch the moon beams reflect off the sparkling snow
Maybe together we can keep each other warm

Cause if you knew what you were in my eyes
You wouldn't want to hide from me
When you're sittin closely to me
When you sat close to me
We wouldn't worry about beliefs
I'd be like you and you
You'd be like me

[Babblin words]
Track Name: Good Lullaby
No need for the long fancy prayers
You leave those where you are found
He'll give you the words that you needed
Ya don't need to defend a thing

Cause you don't owe them anything
naw you don't owe them anything
naw you don't owe them a thing

From heaven, His eyes say I see you (The Father)
I know that you've been through a lot
I was there when they took it all from ya
You won't get it back but I'll give you my heart

Because they don't owe you anything
Naw they don't owe you anything
Naw they don't owe you a thing

When my thoughts start to spiral on downwards
with the weight of the world on a chain
and I won't mind either bondage or freedom
I don't even remember Your name

Still You gave me everything
Still You gave me everything
Still You give me a place

So when the beast comes with his hands on a paper
With my name and a list of moments and verbs
I'll say but only one sentence
"I don't need to give you even one word."

Cause I don't owe you anything
Naw I don't owe you anything
Naw I don't owe you a thing!

And the crowds they are jumpin and screamin
They're makin a whole lot of noise
Their arms are erupting volcanoes
And their shouts like the end of the world

We don't owe anything!
We don't owe anything!
We don't owe a thing!

[rest]

When every leaf has fallen to the bottom
And the barks been stripped from my trunk
And the sun has set on the harvest
All that still stands is a stump
My woods turned to rafts
Under crass waves
Been sunk
Remember Him and throw the [rest] to the fire
Remember Him and throw the rest to the fire
Track Name: first note
Last night I reread the note I wrote to you
"Dear mystery woman I'm tryin my best for you.
Hold on tightly the things that keep you strong.
Let go quickly the lies about who you are."

But last night I stopped prayin for my future wife
Instead tried rememberin why I'm still alive
Didn't stop carin, just thought it kind of strange
To pray for a somethin that probably wont ever be

But I finally realize
Yea I finally realize
Yea I finally realize
That you're not at all mine

Now I'm recallin faces, I wished they all were mine
One thousand faces, each one was your disguise
One thousand faces I've met, all have passed me by
felt more like one thousand spirits taunting my discouraged sigh

But I finally realize
Yea I finally realize
Yea I finally realize
That you're not at all mine
Track Name: collar bones
You came out walkin
you came out strong
I came out talkin
it all came out wrong

Am I hiding well?
In your secret place
when you're feeling lonely
are you just like me?

And you're tellin stories
with your wintered skin
and your collar bones
sing like violins

and you're readin sonnets
with your broken eyes
and I'm mixin words
it's a thin disguise

And I'm feelin foolish
and I'm feelin blind
cause I fell in love
in two days time

I don't care for you
I don't care for me
I'm just stuck inside
My own tendencies
Track Name: Tell me what you want
Why dont you tell me what you want, girl
Why dont you tell me what you want
Cause I been searchin for a long time comin
Yeah, I been searchin for so long

You may say that you are done, girl
or you may say it never was
but you best mean what you say
cause if your gone, baby be gone

Cause I
can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your eyes
what do you see in mine?

If I
didn't run and hide
if i didn't run and hide
what do you expect you'd find

You wanna talk about me now?
well I can tell you anything
"when were you plannin on givin up?"
spose I should ask me that same thing

So let me tell it to you once, girl
let me tell it to you once
I will stretch myself as thin as water
if continue to fill my cup

If I
was honest and contrite
was honest and contrite
would you fill my recessed lines?

Cause these lies
are armor round my side
they're armor round my sides
cause I don't want to die
Track Name: Death Star
I’m okay if I do die alone
I’m okay if I do die,
alone. As long as I can die right now

I’m okay if I do die alone
I’m okay if I do die,
alone. As long as I can die right now

I’ve pushed against these rocks that wouldn’t move
Pushed while the sun would chase the moon
Circles I ignored to find a girl
It’s foolish but I’m through with
Armored words now

I’m not afraid of this broken world
Angles, demons, actions, words
But bless me father and my
Fellow falling stars
I’m so afraid of breaking her heart

So, I’m okay if I do die alone
I’m okay if I do die,
alone. As long as I can die right now

So wreck my bones and rip up my heart
Pull it out and fill it up
With darkness and farness covered
Up in tarps
Cause all we are are broken parts

But sometimes I’d swear that I can hear ya call
Through photographs where you’re all alone
Could I come in so I can
Pretend that I’m not broken?
Well, it’s just a piece of paper

After all I’m okay if I do die alone
I’m okay if I do die,
alone. As long as I can die right now

I’m okay if I do die alone
I’m okay if I do die,
alone. As long as I can die right now

Don’t you wait, hurry up
Death or freedom please show up
Cause I’m bumped and bruised and
Clueless and I’m tired of slidin so far down

I’m okay if I do die alone
I’m okay if I do die,
alone. As long as I can die right now

I’m okay if I do die alone
I’m okay if I do die,
alone. As long as I can die right now
Track Name: Givin in the Whale
Here's to givin' in with good intentions
While you're sinkin' in the belly of the whale
Cause you've given in, with good intentions
Held so gently in your palm

And half way to the bottom of the sea
Like schools of fishes, pass, the chance to do the right thing
And those intentions, so safe inside your palm
Are the only things that've not gone wrong

Did it strike you kind of odd?
Being the only kid in school without the chicken pox
Child still you do not see?
There's nothin more human than you or Me

And I know it's natural to want to blame the whale
Whose taken you deeper than you wanted to dwell
but now that the lights are out, you may want to think about
Opening up and see what's there

Didn't it strike you kind of odd?
Being the only kid in school without the chicken pox
Child still you don't believe?
There's nothing more human than you or Me

So with all honesty, and the things you learned in school
Open up your palm and see if it can float
Just let go of all the things you think you need
And open up to Me

Just open up to Me
There's nothin more human than you or Me
Track Name: Baking Powder
Holy roses daughter of heaven you
surly caught my gaze and I wonder if
you feel the same, not hardly finding the
words to say, least never the right words
come from my head to my mouth and I wonder if
you ever wonder of what could have been when you
look at the spot, where the wine had spilt where I got the stain
up from the carpet with baking powder.

Holy Jesus father of heaven would
I move my house 1,000 miles for the
Tern, who I'd seen and heard the voice of, makes me
question who stole my heart after all cause I've
thickened my skin like medieval armor and my
heart i've not seen and can't recall it's color. My
thoughts are like soils that have not seen the sun. Funny
how your brain can play trick when you're all alone.

But I can't pretend theres nothing wrong
That I'm all alone because of fate
Horoscopes and Church, I don't believe
a word you say..
cause there's nothing wrong with me

Holy father, and my fellow falling
stars, how can you so easily discard the
guilt of your sins and of who we are and so
easily trust you with someone else's heart? I've
looked all around for 22 years and I've
seen smiles like children on halloween just
littering the streets with costumes, masks and treats. Are you
all pretending or do you actually trust you?

Cause I can't prettend there's nothing wrong
that I'm all alone because of fate
horoscopes and church I don't believe
a word you say
cause there's nothing wrong with me

That's just what everyone will think
That's just what everyone will think
Track Name: dark dark world
I was born into a dark dark world
wont be long til we're all gone
it chewed me up and it spit me out
I'm born again but I've had enough

I'm well acquainted with life alone
Done it long enough, now it feels like home
Safest place I've learned to run
If it kills me slow then it's no fun

You we're born into this dark dark world
Got your reasons to turn around
They lift you up and they push you down
But not before they've shut your mouth

Her droplets of hair are my spoonfuls of sun
But she holds her fear like a mother holds a gun
Deadpan stare, it hides all that's been done
Don't give a care to herself or anyone
Can this be the one?

I know hope as it's hung from a thread
inches from my nose like a wisp of wind
hold it close and it disappears
you're no different, I see you clear

Still the curious kiss of things unknown
beauty I'd still like to make my home
beauty I'd like to ask to hold
beauty I'd not mind dyin for

Her droplets of hair sends spoonfuls of sun
Holds her fear like a mother holds a gun
Deadpan stare, it hides all that's been done
Don't give a care bout herself or anyone
Can this be the one?
Track Name: Just As You Wished It To Be
I wish you'd say somethin kinda like "I'm sorry"
So I could say "please don't worry about me"
But I guess all that's been said
by not bein said
and we're both just free to go our seperate ways

Cause I can't come with joy riding through the snow capped mountains
and you can't be tamed like the mississippi, cold and frozen
but if you ever come to second guess your choice
if you ever come to long for my voice
well you have my tapes of sad sad songs
when your ridin with your boy you both can sing along
and the world will be just as you wish it to be

Don't ask me for to see my scars no more
I do not need your touch to help me see
My scars belong to me
yeah I'm a fool for showin you beneath my sleeves
my life and death are mine they belong to me

Cause I can't come with joy riding through the snow capped mountains
I'm gonna die up here where the mississippi's cold and frozen
but if you ever come to second guess your choice
if you ever come to long for my voice
well you have my tapes of sad sad songs
when your ridin with your boy you both can sing along
and the world will be just as you wish it to be

yeah you have my tapes of sad sad songs
when your ridin with your boy you both can sing along
and the world will be just as you wish it to be
and the world will be just as you wish it to be
and the world will be just as you wish it to be
Track Name: Apologies are shadowed by fact
It's with regret that I write this
With blurry mind I misstepped
Now heart contrite
I see what's right
and it's not at all what I've done

I never wanted to harm you
I wanted to love like a brother
but soon down the line
I changed my mind
and I wanted you for a prisoner

What's done is done
no mind how fast you can run
Now I know what I've done
was a misstep

Apologies in the shadows of
Actions that spoke loudest of all
I don't want you back
I want to take it all back
But Apologies are shadowed by fact

You're like a flower budding
And I cant ever stop smiling
with blurry eyes
I covered you in dyes
And filled up my vase with your body

What's done is done
no mind how fast you can run
Now I know what I've done
was a misstep

Apologies in the shadows of
Actions that spoke loudest of all
I don't want you back
I want to take it all back
But Apologies are shadowed by fact

Apologies in the shadows of
Actions that spoke loudest of all
I don't want you back
I want to take it all back
But Apologies are shadowed by fact
Track Name: Patience whispers "try again"
This old dog sent us two by two
to find his death a parachute.
Needless to say I'd of given in
if patience hadn't come and kissed my lips.

Now see, he hid well but cut it too close.
Now I see his hand and now I know.
I would have publicized this tragedy
but patience came and danced for me.

I can't find my voice without first finding trouble,
-True, it's also half full, but don't burst my bubble.
I said that I've learned; that I've found my voice
but I'm a news camera crew and a box of dry ice

I lost the game but I still wanna fight,
bashing my stick against the hockey rink ice
I've not yet been bold, to call you all blind
but those aren't elevators their all water slides

but I rest my hand still above her skin
Patience cracks a grin and slowly lets me in
I see there's hope, still, inside her skin
I try to breathe her in, I try to breathe her in

Patience, what did you call me again?
call me again.
Track Name: Cop-out
I wrote a new song
I kept it clean
I'm working day jobs
Keeping me discrete

I keep my eyes up
Walk to the beat
I'm trying to focus
On greater things

That new barista
Who started down the street
She's awfly tempting
But games aren't for me

But I want to feel the stretching
when I don't get what I want
I want to feel the stretching
when I'm the reason for a broken heart
I want to feel the stretching
when all I got isn't enough
To repair the broken things,
I want to feel my savior come

Don't pretend you're strong little boy
You got a good thing going on
Don't pretend you're strong little boy
Just you wait till kingdom come

But I want to feel the stretching
when I don't get what I want
I want to feel the stretching
when I'm the reason for a broken heart
I want to feel the stretching
when all I got isn't enough
To repair the broken things,
I want to feel my savior come
Track Name: Draggin' Boy
Hello young lady my name is the boy that will bring you down
I'm different from those other boys clinging to the strings in your gown
And I've heard a hint of possibilities from the talk round town
And I hope that you'll forgive me for cutting you off before you drown
Cause I'm a heavy hunk of metal though you think that I'm a crown

Let's skip formalities, realities, and all the sorts
don't tell me what you think or a single thing that's on your heart
Cause I see your destiny, prosperity and I want out
I'll cut down every tree in proximity don't you dare now come about
Cause I'm not done feeling bitter and I can't afford a sprout

I can't tell who I am no more
I can't tell who I was before
I'd rip down rip down this exterior
But I'm afraid I'm afraid I won't be standing when my sharps hit the floor

If I say that I can't stay you can assume I'm telling lies
Cause I've been hoping for anything but loosing hope is for the wise
I can't stop staring and obsessing best you don't come around
Of course you'd like me flying ten feet from the ground
Track Name: Come For You Comfort You
The T.V.'s taken all the good cleshays
Horoscopes summarize the days
the summer sun's set the world in a blaze
Now global warning's got the people in a craze

Don't leave your homes

Soon they're gonna legalize the green
keep us hypnotized while the seasons change
All the while the suits are acting strange
They think they know everything about me

Have you found your reason to live

Oh baby you're a fire crack
You stand up tall while the city's in ash
You always justify the things you do
Then run and hide when they come for you

And they do come for you
While they comfort you
Track Name: Call Me Home
All those who don't know
They place their bets
They don't know how I've wanted to die
Or how I've always tried to do right
They only know of all of my miss steps

But there was something about her eyes
Felt like I didn't need a disguise
Something about her eyes
She told me boy you can get away and be alone that's fine, that's fine

But then I get carried away
Yeah I get carried away
I know sometimes I go away unexplained

So I tied tight my shoes
The wind was on my back
And I got used to untastey foods
And houses made of chewing gum glue
And all the while my heart grew cold like lead

But there was something in her eyes
Made my heart pump faster than time could fly
Something in her eyes
She told me boy you can get away and be alone that's fine, anytime

That's good cause I get carried away
Yeah I get carried away
She knows sometimes I go away unexplained
Cause I just need to find my place

Still I would think on her eyes
That called me and broke the hold of my prison cell mind
I would think on her eyes
She told me boy you can get away but I won't wait in this line
No I won't wait in your line

But this time I think I'd kinda rather stay
I think I'd kinda rather stay
Cause I have seen the other side and how it decays
And now I'm sure I've finally found my place

It's right here inside her eyes
Inside her eyes
She knows all my broken parts and my first place prizes
Here inside her eyes
I'm found inside her eyes
She told me boy don't prove a thing 'cept that you'll be nearby
She told me boy don't prove a thing 'cept that you'll be nearby
And I'm free to finally oblige
Track Name: Ate Baby Porcupine (acoustic)
I ate a baby porky pine.
It's grown through my skin.
Bitterness is moldy blankets
that we've wrapped ourselves in.

And I let it in my lung
I lit it in my lungs
I let it in my lung
I lit it in my
lungs

I drank it down like water
It seemed I'd walked so far.
It went in sweet like raisins,
now it burns hot like sulfer.

And I breathe it like a smoking gun
I breathe it like a smoking gun
I breathe it like a smoking
Gun

[I don't blame myself]
but there's no denying that my skin has changed
[I don't blame myself]
Quick as a match I realize that I'm opposite
[I don't blame myself]
When really the change has been slow like winter turns to spring
[I don't blame myself]
but it's reality, my skin's changed opposite shades

[You breathe in me not like anyone] X3 I'll breathe you in like the burning sun
It's reality

You pulled the mourning across my chest
deep breaths like morning baptize
my head, like a brush across my skin,
I'd said I'd always let You in

I breathe you in like the burning sun
I'll breathe you in like the burning sun
I'll breathe you in like the burning sun
You breathe in me not like anyone

[Chorus and stuff]